Jan 5, 1995, after being sentenced to 30yrs i was sent to East Jersey State Prison aka Rahway at the age of (24). When I arrived it was lunch time they held me in the rotunda. I was able to see people coming and going to and from the mess hall. Some that knew me were yelling my name, it took the edge off a bit to see familiar faces. I was then sent to (4)wing. As I entered the cell it looked like a dungeon from ancient times. I stood there in a daze thinking to myself ( wow,

"When My World Came Crashing Down" Wow. My first night into prison was a flash of my whole life becoming still. It felt like a nightmare on Elm Street trying to wake up from this dream that was holding me against my own will. I was devastated beyond measures stepping into a room with a medal bed a toilet, mirror,desk and a metal window. Oblivious to what was happening next is when the door shut close my mind racing my heart palpitating, my stomach filled with fear and anxiety

The impact of Incarceration dwells beyond ordinary borders of social destruction. It decimates the household, the removal of the vanguard, the male model, strength and lessons that's necessity to fundamental growth and development has been lessened to a (15) minute phone call, The impact on the wife, spouse and family is inconceivable, the full burden of the household is now her responsibility, the nurturing, substance and care for the children becomes overwhelmingly a diffic

To be honest with you I did not want to get in that shower. I tried to tell the officer I did not have to take a shower because I took one before I got on the County bus to come down state. She said if you do not get in the showr she will give me a blue sheet. What the fuck is a blue sheet I asked? She said a charge that will take your skinny ass to lock up and your smelly ass can sit back in a cell alone smelling like musk. I was so angry that I had to take a showr with all